FINALLY! I took the time to write it out. Some of the details are long gone, but I remember the gist of it. Thank God I save text messages, it's the only way I was able to remember all this in somewhat of a chronological order.
Ok, so I will start out by saying that this is one of those birth stories that doesn't exactly give you warm fuzzies. I did not go in to labor in the middle of the night, tell my husband "It's time!" and in 4 hours push out two babies with soft music playing in the background. It was not that pretty. It definitely was not that quick. But it's MY story and I love it because in the end I had two healthy baby boys in my arms.
Here's a little background... I had a c-section with my first son because he was breech. When I found out I was pregnant with the twins, I thought my dreams of a VBAC (Vaginal birth after Cesarean) were gone. After meeting with a specialist, I found out that it was possible and totally reasonable for me to attempt. I researched and researched, hired an awesome doula, and prepared for a vaginal birth. Baby A was head down and the doc was ready and willing to do it. His hope was that I would go into labor on my own so that we didn't need any medications. Most doctors won't let twin mothers go past 38 weeks gestation for fears of placenta deterioration or something like that. So we hoped that by 38 weeks I would be in labor. That's the background. (Spoiler: this is not how it went!)
So I spent the week waddling around, swimming, taking walks, and trying to enjoy the last few days despite being soooo incredibly uncomfortable. I'm one of those annoying pregnant ladies that enjoys pregnancy. I hardly get sick, I practically glow, I love every minute of it. But by this point, I was pretty miserable. I remember sitting at home in the AC playing solitaire all week. Kept my mind off of things I guess.
Anyway, Monday rolls around and I still had yet to experience a contraction or any proof that they were coming. So I got up early, called the hospital and got packing. They said to go eat a good breakfast and come on in that morning. We got all ready and dropped Easton off at my in-laws. We stopped to take this picture....
|Woah! 39 weeks, 5 days|
We had a nervous drive to the hospital, stopping at Bruegger's bagels for some food. If I had known how long I would go without food after this meal, I would have had more than a bagel and cream cheese.... Some stinkin' protein would have been nice. Oh well.
9:28am Monday: I sent a text to the mothers (my mom and Jeremy's mom) to say "we are here! Haven't seen a nurse or anything yet. Just sitting here. Jer is freaking out haha." We texted back and forth for a little while and I told them I was doing great, followed by a text 10 minutes later that said I took that back, I was getting nervous. I had never gone through labor! How bad will it hurt? And I gotta push two out?!
|Jeremy was kind of freaking out|
10:25am: First attempt to get the IV in was a fail. I was so swollen. I wanted to punch the nurse.
11:13am: IV successful (after they brought in the pro with the ultrasound machine to find a vein), and all 3 monitors hooked up (contraction monitor and two heart rate monitors).
|Still feeling good enough to take a selfie at this point|
12:50pm: I texted the moms to say "still no dilation. Starting pitocin as soon as they bring it here. Maverick is head down. Ready to get this started." The plan was to use pitocin very slowly to make sure it wouldn't cause uterine rupture, which was a small risk considering my previous cesarean.
1:22pm: "We're connected to pit!"
1:51pm: "Having contractions already, can't really feel them. Pretty sure I won't be able to sleep though lol." I settled in.... Family would be coming up soon, and the doctor estimated I'd be delivering the boys in the evening or middle of the night. What a feeling! Such excitement, and no pain yet. This wasn't so bad after all......
That afternoon, the family came up, don't ask me who. I know the moms and most of the sisters (I have 5 sisters and Jer has 2). My doula was there as well.
|Monday, 9:07pm... settling in for the night|
|9:47pm Thankful for this man!|
My mother in law, my doula, and some of the sisters spent the night in the waiting room. I remember trying to get them to go home because I knew it would be a while. They wouldn't. They didn't want to miss it! I mean, it HAD to happen soon!
Fast forward to the next morning:
6:40am Tuesday: I texted my mother, "Morning Mom. Wish I had lots to report... But at least I got a tiny bit of sleep and I'm feeling the contractions pretty well. I dunno ma. I'm hanging by a thread lol." I was already getting worried. I hadn't dilated hardly at all. I think only a centimeter or two. The pitocin was very low still though, only at an 11. They had mentioned giving me a break that day so I could eat something, shower, and hopefully give my body the jumpstart it needed. My doctor came in before 9am and assured me that this was normal. Slow and steady was ok. He wasn't worried, which gave me some hope.
11:33am: I texted my mother: "Soooo I'm in pain. I'm going to need my momma soon." She was already on her way. Jer's mother was still there I think. I know she went home for a little while that day but I don't remember when. My doula had also left since she had two kids and needed to go home for a little bit, since this was clearly a marathon and not a sprint labor. But people were coming and going and I was happy to have distractions. I remember Jeremy trying to get me to watch Netflix and I just didn't want to for some reason. I think he turned Friends on for a while but I just couldn't focus.
|1:08pm Tuesday... looking a little warn out.|
|My poor, tired doula. She was a trooper! And didn't know she was pregnant at this point!|
Oh, I forgot a part. At some point, they inserted a foley bulb. It's a catheter that manually opens your cervix. This got me to a 3-4 cm dilated. I was glad it worked cause it hurt like heck to have it inserted. My cervix was posterior so it wasn't easy to get to. But honestly, I have no clue when they did this. I think at some point Tuesday, it may have been late on Monday. I have no clue. Anyway, where were we?
6:05pm: I texted my mother "Didn't work :(" This was in reference to the doctor trying to break my water. Let me tell ya, this was the WORST part of my whole experience. It was the most painful 5 minutes of the whole labor. I don't know if the doctor was particularly forceful or I was just sore and tired and already in pain, but she didn't end up getting the water broken because I was about to kick her straight in the face. It hurt SO bad. Worse than any contraction I had. Ugh. This was a low point of the whole experience. I was in pain, so frustrated, and so worried that it was all going to fail. Here it is the evening of the second day and I'm barely at 4cm. They said they would come try again later.
Side note: throughout this whole thing, I had to be hooked up at all times to the 3 monitors and the IV. The babies' heart rate monitors would slip constantly, and the nurses had to come in and readjust them. I could get out of bed but couldn't walk around. Every time I moved, the monitor slipped. It was super annoying.
9:09pm: Told my mom they would try and break the water again, but this time with an internal baby monitor. It was supposed to be a little quicker and would allow me to ditch one of the baby monitors.
9:33pm: I sent a text to my doula to say "Water is broken!" I was hopeful at this point. Finally, something to get this thing moving. Contractions picked up almost instantly. They got strong and closer together. I was happy to be in pain, because I knew they were doing something!!! My doula was awaiting my text to have her come back up. I finally texted her at 11:45pm and said that she should come soon. They were painful and in my back, and I knew she had lots of tricks up her sleeve to help with the pain. And boy, she did! The best was the rebozo (sp?) thing. It was fabric that I could grip onto and Jeremy could hold the other end. I would pull on it during a contraction and relieve some pressure in my back. She guided Jeremy on where to rub my back and how to hold me in a way that would help through each contraction. I was focused, feeling good, and feeling some nice pain. Contractions were close together and strong all through the night.
|11:13pm. He hated seeing me in pain. Such love!|
2:59am (Wednesday, my DUE date): I texted my mom (who was in the waiting room): "Mommy it hurts!" There's just something about your mom that helps in any situation. My husband was absolutely wonderful during the whole thing, but my Mom had a way to calm me down. She had felt this pain, she had carried twins. That whole night was strangely wonderful. My husband, doula (who is a friend), and both our mothers were all there. We cried, we prayed, we laughed. It was such an experience. We were all tired, all stressed and frustrated, and all leaning on Jesus to help us through the night. They all comforted me and encouraged me.
The back labor was intense, and after two days of contractions I didn't have a whole lot of fight left in me. I decided at about 4am to get an epidural. I knew if I was going to make it to the finish line, I needed to relax and get some sleep. I hadn't progressed much more so I thought it would help. I did get a few hours of much needed sleep.
11:19am (Wednesday): to my mom: "Epidurals are a lie!" For some reason, the right side was numb, and the left side had full feeling. I was so ticked. My back hurt so badly during each contraction and only on one side. I was pissed. The anesthesiologist was in a c section at that time so I had to wait for him to come take a look at it. When he finally did, he blamed the other anesthesiologist and said it was "sh*tty placement." Whatever, dude, just FIX it.
My father-in-law brought Easton up for a while, but that didn't go too well. He was nervous and didn't like seeing me in a hospital bed all hooked up to stuff. He would barely hug me. I said it was fine, but I remember being a little hurt. I mean he's two, but I really wanted some loving from my boy!
|kisses from my little man|
Finally, in the late afternoon I was given a final exam to see if I had progressed. I had been 6 centimeters for a while. Active labor for HOURS and they were going to check me one last time before giving up. Well, they did. And I was maybe 6.5 centimeters. Labor was not progressing and since the babies heart rates were well in the 170's, the doctor finally said they were going to prep me for a cesarean.
My doctor, the one I had been seeing for months, came in and encouraged me. He said we had done everything we can and he applauded me for my effort, but it was time. Honestly, I was relieved. I was done fighting. My emotions and energy were gone, my body was exhausted and I couldn't handle much more. So, they started prepping me. It went down hill quickly and confirmed the necessity of the c-section: I had spiked a fever. They hurried and got me into an OR. They gave me a spinal tap and a bunch of shots that I'm still not sure what they were for. It was all happening fast and it was really stressful.
|My mom took this pitcure as I waited to be wheeled to the OR.|
The surgery took longer than I remember my first being. And it was painful. I don't know what the heck happened with my spine through this whole thing, but the spinal tap wasn't working all that great either! It wasn't like I could feel them cut me open, but it was intense pain as he dug around trying to get baby A out. (Maybe because the anesthesiologist was standing by my head on the phone during my surgery... what the heck?! Get off the phone and give me more drugs!) But once Mr. Maverick was out, at 6:40pm, what relief! One minute later, Tucker was born. Jeremy got to be with the babies while they cleaned them up and I, well, couldn't really go anywhere. They showed me Maverick and told me how small he was! What a little doll. I heard them say that Tucker was much bigger but I didn't get to see him. There was a window in the corner of the room that the mothers and my doula were waiting at. Jeremy got to show them the babies through the window while they closed me up.
|The babies' measurements and footprints!|
|Maverick (Baby A)|
|Tucker (Baby B)|
The nurses were nice enough to let all of the family in around 8:30ish to see me. They wheeled the babies in too, and I got to see my Tucker for the first time! It was all worth it to have my boys finally here! Finally able to be held!
9:16pm: I sent a text to my mother and mother in law saying "Just nursed my boys. What a wonderful feeling!!"
And the rest is history! We were at the hospital 10am Monday, had the babies at 6:40pm Wednesday, on my due date, and were there until we were discharged Saturday afternoon. It was the longest week of my life, I think. Looking back, do I wish it went a little differently? Ummm... yeah. I would have loved to deliver naturally. I would have loved a shorter stay... I should probably have just scheduled the cesarean at 38 weeks like normal twin moms. But I don't think I would change it. Those 3 days were filled with moments where I saw strength in myself that I didn't know I had. My relationship with my husband grew stronger, my relationships with my mother and mother in law, my family, and even my dear friend/doula, became stronger. Those middle of the night prayer sessions were powerful moments in my life. The encouragement I received from my family, friends, and church family as I went through this was amazing. Even the kind words from the nurses meant a lot to me.
It's a long and messy story, but it's MY story. The wonderful story of how I met my twin boys!
|Hands and heart full!|